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So guys welcome to my site, this website is basically just being used to share a story of an average high school kid who went through some rather significant struggles, and managed to come out on top and use his story to inspire others.
Well that average high school is me! So enjoy the story!
If you guys haven't already caught on and have seen How much these last couple months have impacted and completely changed my life into something that I didn't think would ever happen,
I'm telling you this because some of you may know I have had to fight through some pretty rough times in the last few years.
Whether you have heard it through people or scene it through me upon my actions you may have noticed I haven't felt right or happy at all for a very long time.
On Thursday July 18, my life was forever changed for the better.
Before I start I want to let each and every one of you know how much you mean to me. I don't just say that to let all of you know how much you do or you could mean to me. But to let you know how much all of you have done for me. I might be speaking extremely here. But I believe that if God didn't lead me to go on righteous mission 2 years ago. That I wouldn't be here today.
Suicide has crossed my mind thousands of times in the last few years. A couple times its come so close that I've scared myself forever.
As what a couple doctors have said I was 'severely' depressed. It wasn’t until about a year ago that I went to get help and finally get treated for it.
Because at the time it was a big deal. It was absolutely consuming my life. It may not seem like it to many of you that I felt this way. But I've put so much time and effort into learning to control my emotions the best I could to be able to hide the fact that I felt that way. Simply because I didn’t want to be treated any different from how anyone else would want to be treated.
It never used to be like this. Everything up until 8th grade was amazing. I felt like I had the world at my hands and nothing could stop me. Once 8th grade was over, I was never the same. For all who don't know I moved schools in 9th grade for one year to a local private school in the area, and I lied and told my closest of friends that it was my parents plan all along to send me to a private school For high school But really I just wanted to get away from Clarkston and start new. To live to the potential I knew I had.
Freshman year at the new school started great the first half of the year besides when I broke my arm in football in the 3rd game it was good, I saw a future there and all was well. For me, second semester was absolute hell. I was being bullied to no end everyday by not just one or a few people like Clarkston, but by literally my entire grade besides a few good friends.
I couldn't understand why people did this to me. But there was no stopping that snowball of what i had become which was the most picked on kid in the school.
I stayed up many long nights just crying and wishing I was dead. But I knew I couldn't leave earth because of the few that still loved me (At the time I believed that if I were to kill myself it would be a selfish act)
I thought it was just a coincidence that two schools of different people the same thing happened. But I learned later on that it was simply just because I never stood up for myself and just stood there and took it every single time and made it easy for them.
Sophomore year I transferred back to Clarkston. Things were alright until the same people started to bully me the same way. I still couldn't understand it. And still just stood there and took it. And did nothing. Keep in mind during all this time I never once told my parents I was being bullied. (And they never knew until end of sophomore year) I must have been a master secret keeper or something because they didn't suspect a thing. End of sophomore year was a very depressing time.
I do believe to this day that if nothing started in 8th grade my life wouldn’t be even close to where it is today. It would be x1000 different. I strongly believe that all of this happened for a reason. If I could go back and change it I wouldn't because it has made me who I am today. Why it might not make sense what is happening sometimes, it's okay because God has a plan for everyone.
For those wondering what is left of my depression at this point it’s gone. God heals in some amazing ways.
Little did I know that that first night on RM 2011 I would share things i haven't told anyone in which would create relationships with people that would literally save my life.
Up until that downfall, I was always in advanced classes and was a smart kid. But I kid you not I gained such a minimal amount of knowledge from school because my mind just seemed to be slowed down so much.
Falling asleep in class because I stayed up almost the entire night most of the time from staying up thinking about what to do or how to deal with things in a godly way.
It was so bad that it got to the point where people would literally go far out of their reach to hurt me and my reputation for nothing but shameless pure fun. 3 kids went out of their way to make a music video about me on YouTube Titled (Do the BoSimp) about me and my pointless not even funny quirks about me such as how I would nod my head to music or how I looked down when I walked in the hallway sometimes.
This Video got out to the whole grade and most of the school.
Once word started to get around. Administration quickly caught on and I was called into the office to talk to the head dean of discipline.
He asked me if it was bullying or just messing around with friends but.I told him these guys that were destroying my mind and that they were my friends. And that it was a simple prank.
I could of got these kids in serious trouble, but all I ever wanted was a fair shot in everything and the last thing I wanted was more attention.. (Or attention causing my parents to know what was going on)
If my story can save even one life from being taken. my job here is complete. I truly hope this inspires anyone who may have had to deal with any of the similar things I have had to go through.
So do have those conversations where you have solid groups/ accountability partners as sharing things do help more than you would ever think.
If you don't have any sort or trusted or safe accountability system, I mean it that I would be hear to listen to ANYONE
The Lord is real, I have zero doubts that this was his plan for me all along.
Depression is a real mental sickness, it truly affects people’s thoughts and ability to act rationally and perform to the best of their abilities on a daily basis.
When you're not truly happy with the people you spend a majority of your time around it is impossible to be happy
If this story can bring any sort of motivation or inspiration to anyone It was worth telling.
The brokenness of this world is more common than you think. More people are struggling with things and putting on masks to cover those feelings up.
By sharing this story I seek no pity or attention. Only the opportunity to serve others and change lives, as well as help and inspire others
Find joy in bringing others Happiness, I will aspire to live my life for this.
Lupe's song 'Show Goes On" really gave me a vision of what was to come. Just listen to the lyrics!
Eminem is a lyrical icon. So many of his songs hit so spot on to different sorts of common situations in peoples lives. For me this song No Love, just competely gave me hope to hold on, and not give up onto what was to come for me.
I myself am a big fan of electronic music. Mitis makes some amazing chillstep. I belive his music really eases your mind. I know it has helped me think through a ton of different things before.